My Imperfect Body

Ever since Wah!Banana became popular, almost every one of the cast begin to observe changes in our lives. The most prominent is adapting to being seen as a public figure.

As much as we enjoy acting, I can assure you that we are very private people. We started the channel because of passion and work, certainly not fame. In fact,  none of us expected our work to grow to this size. The fame and public recognition came as a surprise to us and until this very day, I don't think any of us has grasp the extent of it.

Being seen as a public figure has made me realized something, I am physically imperfect. Well, it is not to say that I had previously thought that I was perfect, but I certainly didn't pay that much attention to my body as I do now. I would just go about my life as per normal, not really concerned if my complexion was bad or I was flabby. I ate what I want, say what I want and do what I want. It is different now.

Being a nobody has it's perks. I can leave the house in my shorts and washed-out old T-shirt with my dirty flip-flops, in my clean but makeup-less face. I can laugh out loud whenever I'm out with my friends. I can curse and complain on social media without drastic repercussions. Being a nobody has the freedom that I am starting to miss.

A nobody doesn't have to deal with nasty and mean comments about my body on the internet. People commenting that I am fat, too skinny, ugly, flat, short etc. I am glad that I'm not a vain person. These comments may be nasty but they don't bother me, because I know there is no one out there who is perfect.

So what if that's what people think of me? I am comfortable in my own skin. Whenever I am lazy (which is quite often), I will still leave the house in old clothes and no makeup. Interestingly, people still recognize me. I guess I should be happy.

The media has painted a terrible picture in defining beauty, influencing our view of it. Cosmetic surgery, expensive clothing, branded accessories, thick makeup etc. People come in all shapes, colors and sizes but media has created a single definition of beauty that is grossly inaccurate. Where has the natural and healthy beauty gone?

More and more people are turning to changing their looks to gain confidence. I do agree that looking good can make one more confident but how do you define 'good looking'? Does having a straight nose make you 'good-looking'? Does having large eyes make you 'good-looking'? Maybe that's what the media tells you. I think looking healthy with a dose of confidence is what makes you look good.

It doesn't matter if you have a birthmark or small eyes or crooked nose, I will find you attractive if you are confident with a glowing personality. Nothing beats that.

Stop chasing that superficial beauty. You are beautiful as you are.