The nature of our work requires us to put ourselves in front of the camera and on screen. I love acting because it allows me to be someone else. However, this passion comes with a price. As much as I love the appreciation and attention, I love my private life as much. This makes it really tough for me when I am off screen.
I do love sharing my life with my friends and family as I had been doing for years before YouTube changed my life. But I don't like feeling exposed.
I enjoy walking around in public, having my $1 pushcart ice cream; dressed in shorts, tank and slippers, laughing out loud with my friends, not having to worry that people are looking at me weird or pointing at me.
In the beginning, I didn't like being recognised in public. I felt like I was not safe in public, that people are constantly watching me. They know who I was hanging out with, where I was eating or even where I lived. That really scared me. I was so not used to it. I wanted everyone to just go away.
It's been almost 2 years since this YouTube work started for me and I have begun to get used to being recognised and approached in public. I won't say I like it but I don't detest it. I have accepted it as a part of my job. The boys have also taught me to see it from a different perspective; they come up to you because they really love and appreciate your work, be glad that they do. I do from the bottom of my heart but I am still trying to get used to having my life going public, give me some time.
Currently, I am happy to have people come up to me to say hi. I am absolutely cool with that. I don't even mind if they ask for pictures and autographs. However there are times when I am taken aback by the way some people approach but that, deserves a post on its own.
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